New found obsession

Meet Moon Jae Shin aka "Geol Oh" (crazy horse), my newest korean crush for the month. ^^ I found him in the drama "Sungkyungkwan Scandal" where he plays the role of a rebel. That is why he is called crazy horse. He is untamed and wild in many ways. No wonder I was drawn to him. ^^

Anyway, his presence throughout the drama is what makes me want to watch it. The male lead, played by TVXQ's Mikey Yoochun, proves no interest for me since his character is boring and too over bearing for my taste. But Geol Oh gives the drama the needed spice to keep me hooked. ^^Just by looking at this photo, my heart just did a thousand cart wheels non-stop. This is my favorite photo of him yet. And those cherry blossom petals just took my imagination on hyper drive. >_<
Okay, so I admit that I am a sucker for macho men. As angelic as he looked in the tree photo above, I just could not help but post this photo of him as well. He looks so sinfully yummy here that I feel like pouncing on him. >_<>_< Here's another 'almost bare me' photo. His abs are covered once more but the part that is showing is...I don't even wanna think about it. Its too...never mind. >_< But...but... the thing I like most about this photo is his face. Honestly! His face here is just captivating and adorable that I could not resist but post it. =____=

Anyway, here are some more of Yoo Ahin's photos which shows his manly good looks and charm. ^^

Thoughts

I once said to myself that I will start anew and not have any more regrets. Well I just ate my words. No matter how much I try to start anew, I always end up regretting. May it be small stuffs or big ones. The big ones are the ones that I most definitely regret the most. I always seem to make wrong decisions all the time. I never seem to have one solid decision for the past years. I may cry it out but still there is that lingering feel of guilt and remorse for doing something so wrong. I don't think I have any more tears left to cry. Nor any more smiles to spare. I am hopeless. I am a very bad person who makes all the wrong decisions in life. I have so many regrets that I could never change anymore. But I wish I could. Somehow, regrets do come too late after all. I wish I could have just one good, solid decision this year that would be life changing. But I can't trust myself to make even one decision now. I'm to scared to make one now. I might just lose everything if I do that. But what does it mean to lose everything? I have never known what it would be like to give up everything. All this time I have been blessed. And all I ever do is complain all the time. I have never, not even once, considered myself blessed, and appreciated what I have. I am such a big idiot. The biggest one ever to have lived. Why am I like this? Why can't I appreciate what I have? Why can't I just be thankful and learn to live with it? Why? Because I am not happy. I'm scared. So scared I can't think clearly. But does being scared even an excuse? I don't think it is. But I am scared. I have never admitted it to anyone. But I am scared. Does anyone ever realize it? Can't they see I'm scared? They keep pushing me to the edge and yet they don't give me second glances to see if I'm alright. They just push and push not knowing I can't even move anymore. I feel trapped. I'm choking from everything and everyone around me. What must I do to free myself of this? Please tell me. Somebody, anybody...please save me...

Why?

As the year started bad luck has always been my shadow. Countless times I have tried and failed, got hurt, jilted, used, and abused. And during those times I ask myself why. Why does it happen to me? Why did I fail? Why am I always the abused? Why do I even care what others think? Why do I blame myself every time? And the questions just goes on and on. As months have passed, I can never find the answers to any of these questions. Instead they grow more and more confusing. I can't stand it anymore. As I contemplate on my own, the more questions pop up on my mind. And once more, "why" is there. I can't seem to shake that question off. No matter how hard I try I always end up with why. Why am I here? I ask myself. Why was I born? Why am I living this life? Why can't I be happy? Why can't I find what makes me happy? Why can't I do what I want? Why must I always follow orders? Why must I be the obedient one? Why must I do as I am told? Why must I do what my parents and relatives want me to do? Why do I always end up regretting everything I do? Why do I feel so guilty? Why do I feel so alone? Why do I feel like I have no life? Why must I be forced to do something I don't want? Why is it that I can never be right? Why is it that I will never be free? Why do I shed these tears? Why do I feel so uneasy all the time? Why do I hurt a lot? Why do I go on and on asking these questions? Why can't I ever find the answers to all of these? WHY??? These are just part of the things I ask myself and never get to answer them. I am not that simple minded enough to be able to answer all these with just one word or two. Nor can I answer them with a yes or a no. Everything around me seems so complicated that I am at a loss. People are just cynics. All of them. Society is crude and evil. Relatives are preying wolves. Family is full of hypocrites. Parents are just pure dictators. I wish I could just vanish from their sight. I wish there was a place I can go where names and titles and power and wealth mean nothing. I am so sick of everything and everyone. I wish I could just blot out the noise from around me so I can think. So many voices surround me in high volumes and high pitches. I can no longer hear my own voice. I have lost myself in the ocean of people teeming with vicious sarcasm,cynicism and idiosyncrasy.

Bishies of my life

Lee Hongki- My Summer Romance
He is #1 in my heart right now. He is simply love. ^_^ I picked him to be my summer romance because he is like a summer breeze that makes me feel warm and tingly all over when I see him. ^___________^ And like summer, he is full of that happy ambiance that just makes your heart melt just by smiling at you.

Choi Jonghun - Zettai Kareshi
My ideal boyfriend. Yes. He is a prince personified in my opinion. He a true gentleman and has a face like an angel's. He's like prince charming come to life! ^_^ I could imagine him in a prince outfit like the ones in the old days wherein they wear sinfully tight breeches and long vests and a sword...kyaaaaaaaaaaaaa~ too much imagination makes me sinfully evil >=D

Jang Geun Suk - Purrfect husbandOk, so this is getting hotter by the minute. I simply want to jump in on that couch with him. lol ^_^ JGS is the ideal husband to be. He likes long relationships and hates lying. Just as I do. *ehem*ehem* He is a sweet and funny person. He is just adorable and charming in many ways. And he loves to cook too. A true blue perfect husband. And oh did I mention he has a killer smile that is to die for? ^_^

Jung Yonghwa - boy next door crush
Yonghwa is the perfect boy-next-door crush. He is timid but he has this boyish charm that draws you near and without knowing fall for him. I wouldn't mind having him as my neighbor. I'd probably bring him cookies everyday. wahahahaha XD

Tae Yang and GD - bad boy crushes
Such charming smiles for my bad boys. Just how I like it. I couldn't choose one from the other so I took both so I didn't have to choose. wahahaha. >=D

I had to include these. They are too yummy to resist! >_<

Eli - fag crush
I refuse to believe that he is a fag even though he may act so girly. But no matter what, fag or not, I still have a crush on him. I think he is just scrumptious enough to nibble on. hahahaha

Kang Minhyuk - my little drummer boy

I call him my little drummer boy since 1. he is the drummer in the band, and 2. he is the baby in the band, him being the youngest. hahahaha. I just think he is adorable. I could pinch his cheeks until they're burning red. ahahaha. I'm such a bad noona. But I love my little drummer boy. ^_^

Matsumoto Jun - First loveOk so here is my first love. I fell head over heels for him ever since I saw him on Gokusen 1. He was the bad boy with a heart of gold. And then he came to me as the almighty Domyouji in HYD, and that blew me away! I was totally goo-goo eyes over him there. I was actually deluded that I'd meet him someday and he will sweep me off my sorry feet and we'll live happily ever after. wahahahaha. XD

Jungshin - classmate crush

He is so cute in that school uniform. >_< I just think it fits him perfectly. He would definitely be my crush in the class. If I'm seated next to him in class, I think I wouldn't be able to decipher anything the teacher discusses. hahahaha. XD

Hi My Sweetheart

have you ever seen pink panther like this? or even imagine him like this?????


This is a Taiwanese drama that got me hooked after one episode. I couldn't believe it myself, since I am such not a big fan of Taidrama just because they speak in Chinese and I don't like listening to chinese. Its so..so..high pitched and well, it just annoys me. Anyway, even if it was in chinese, I got hooked, line and sinker. Yep. I did not expect it since the main protagonist dude is a geeky and unappealing guy. But what hooked me was not his physical appearance, it was the ladies, erm, I mean the funny antics they had. Ok, so the ladies were hot. And I'm a fan of Rainie's, what can I say. Anyway, this is a drama worth watching. I loved it. I laughed and cried over it. I even stayed up till early dawn just watching it. So here's a little peek at what its like.



this is quite a spoiler vid, but foie, I love it and I wanna share it here. Its their dance during the sweetheart contest.



this is their opening dance for the one above. aren't they cute? >_<



now have you ever seen pink panther this way? its totally another kind of pink panther, that's
for sure. \(^0^)/

now, that's just a teaser for y'all. I suggest you watch it and enjoy it.



credits goes to abiglee for the gif icons. ^_^

Drama Addiction

Since after seeing YAB last year I have gotten hooked to asian dramas. Not that I have not been addicted to it before, but this time around the fever has gotten an all time high! Seriously. I am infected with the asian drama virus. I thought that after a month's time it would subside but apparently I was wrong. Last December I found YAB and I was instantly head over heels over it. I found lots of bishies and I went crazy over them til the end of January (this is what happens when you are single and lonely, I tell you). By Feb., the fever was lying low, since I had another crazy thing going on. I was totally TRYING to cure myself of it, but I did the unthinkable. Instead of CURING myself, I INFECTED myself with the virus all the more! Sounds crazy huh? Well I am one crazy person, well more like a crazy fan girl *crazy evil laugh*. >=D

So here's a list of what I have been obsessing about for the past few months:

1. You're Beautiful (YAB)

A beautiful love-comedy that would surely keep you wanting for more!
And I definitely want MORE. \(^0^)/

2. Hi My Sweetheart

Another love-comedy with a tinge of spice.
Its full of funny and crazy antics that makes you laugh and cry at the same time.
Definitely worth the watch!

3. Take care of the young lady
Still another love-comedy that I have yet to finish. And in it stars my
idol Eun Yoon Hye in flaming red hair! She is just so HOT in red. ahahaha
A fourth away through the series and I am loving it!

My Prince Personified

This is my prince, Choi Junghoon of FT Island. Isn't he just dreamy? ^_^