Monday, December 7, 2009
Independence
I always thought that my family depends on me.Not in the financial aspect, but in other ways.I was wrong.They never depended on me at all.They don't even need me anymore.I'm just one burden for them now and it shows.More and more conflicts arise and each and every day there is a dispute among us.I'm so tired of hearing them nag and scold me.My ears are ringing from too much of it.I've been a sheltered fool all my 21 years and I have been ignorant to the real world all this time.I never knew how hard it was to earn a living for yourself and thrive on it for survival.I have come to that realization when I took on a job and endured it,though it was only for a short period of time,but I did learn from it.I realized that standing on your own is definitely hard,perhaps even more.But that is what independence mean,right?To stand on your own without depending on anyone for support.I have been a dependent all this time and its high time that I leave that protective label.I'm no longer a child now,and its about time that I left my sanctuary and deal with the reality.This may be one big step that I might be taking but I am going to abide by it.No matter what it takes.I am certain that they will give a it about me leaving,but I don't care anymore.I am now as determined as ever to turn my back on my family and deal with it.I know that in the long run that I might regret it,but I am willing to accept that fact.I am so tired already of them having to boss me around and run my life.I don't care if they will disinherit me or shun me for life,I will do it.I wont be a pawn anymore to their every whim and will.I will live my life according to my wishes as it should be.I will repay them for whatever they have given me whenever I can.I am thankful that they have given me my life and a good education.I will never forget that fact.And as I am bound by gratitude to them for such things,I will eventually repay that debt.But now,I am going to spread my wings and live my life,no longer caged,but free.
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Top 10 careers I want to have
10. Loving and devoted wife to a duke or king - mwahahaha! I shall not accept anything less, unless he is a hot, muscled man knighted or with title and provision for a life of luxury. Given of course that he stays devoted and honest to me and his only fear is of losing me. ;p
9. Mangaka -I have always wanted to be a manga artist, however I am constantly discouraged by my lack of skill to draw but it is still one of my hearts desires that someday I will be able to make a manga of my own, whether it may be for leisure or income, just as long as I make sure that I'm enjoying what I do.
8.Dictator/President-I have always wanted to run a country under my supreme evilness. But I am not one of those greedy little bastards of the government who only loots for themselves. Of course I think of the people whom I will rule over. Provided that they work their asses off, then I shall give fair compensation for them. I will however make certain that they are provided honest jobs, even if it will force me to make jobs that are quite ridiculous to be named just as long as they have one and be able to provide for themselves and their family. And of course I will rule with an iron fist, knuckles, and my entire being and make sure that wrong doers are punished to the core. >=D
7.Multi-billionaire- Well probably most of us dream of being one. I mean who doesn't, right? All the money and power at my beck and call. I will no longer have to work for money but have money work for me. bwahahaha.
6.Explorer- I was just totally amazed by those people in natgeo, discovery channel, and animal planet that I wondered what course did they take to become such experts on those things and just be going on expeditions, digging and exploring to their hearts content and be paid for it. I know it is a dangerous job, but I still think its worth it.
5.Famous writer- Being a devoted book lover, I also want to be able to write marvelous books that would make people fall in love with my work and find solace in them when they are tired from work, out of love, and depressed. I want to be able to share to them a wonderful escape from all the chaos in this world and loose themselves in it even if it is just for a few minutes or hours.
4.World famous Pianist- I have been envious of people who can play the piano. I regret that I was never taught on how to play the piano when I was little, and so I want to learn to play it, make beautiful music and share it to the world.
3.Pirate- Since I read that book I have longed since want to be a pirate. I mean living on edge and be a cut-throat seems just so appealing to me. Looting from the rich and giving to the poor and needy and live my life in carefree and unchained from all the world.
2.Wizard- Ok so this is probably ridiculous and no this is not because of the harry potter movie carze. I want to be one since I watched an anime series of wizards and guilds and all that. Right then and there I decided to become one and join a guild. Provided of course that I find what my magical ability is before hand and become an awesome wizard worthy of the guild i'll be joining.
1. Patissiere- This is my ULTIMATE dream. I love baking so much that I simply want to make sweets and make people love it and feel so happy because of it. I am still way out of the profs league but I'm sure with practice and a lot of effort and love and determination I will succeed. I just know I will. I believe so.
9. Mangaka -I have always wanted to be a manga artist, however I am constantly discouraged by my lack of skill to draw but it is still one of my hearts desires that someday I will be able to make a manga of my own, whether it may be for leisure or income, just as long as I make sure that I'm enjoying what I do.
8.Dictator/President-I have always wanted to run a country under my supreme evilness. But I am not one of those greedy little bastards of the government who only loots for themselves. Of course I think of the people whom I will rule over. Provided that they work their asses off, then I shall give fair compensation for them. I will however make certain that they are provided honest jobs, even if it will force me to make jobs that are quite ridiculous to be named just as long as they have one and be able to provide for themselves and their family. And of course I will rule with an iron fist, knuckles, and my entire being and make sure that wrong doers are punished to the core. >=D
7.Multi-billionaire- Well probably most of us dream of being one. I mean who doesn't, right? All the money and power at my beck and call. I will no longer have to work for money but have money work for me. bwahahaha.
6.Explorer- I was just totally amazed by those people in natgeo, discovery channel, and animal planet that I wondered what course did they take to become such experts on those things and just be going on expeditions, digging and exploring to their hearts content and be paid for it. I know it is a dangerous job, but I still think its worth it.
5.Famous writer- Being a devoted book lover, I also want to be able to write marvelous books that would make people fall in love with my work and find solace in them when they are tired from work, out of love, and depressed. I want to be able to share to them a wonderful escape from all the chaos in this world and loose themselves in it even if it is just for a few minutes or hours.
4.World famous Pianist- I have been envious of people who can play the piano. I regret that I was never taught on how to play the piano when I was little, and so I want to learn to play it, make beautiful music and share it to the world.
3.Pirate- Since I read that book I have longed since want to be a pirate. I mean living on edge and be a cut-throat seems just so appealing to me. Looting from the rich and giving to the poor and needy and live my life in carefree and unchained from all the world.
2.Wizard- Ok so this is probably ridiculous and no this is not because of the harry potter movie carze. I want to be one since I watched an anime series of wizards and guilds and all that. Right then and there I decided to become one and join a guild. Provided of course that I find what my magical ability is before hand and become an awesome wizard worthy of the guild i'll be joining.
1. Patissiere- This is my ULTIMATE dream. I love baking so much that I simply want to make sweets and make people love it and feel so happy because of it. I am still way out of the profs league but I'm sure with practice and a lot of effort and love and determination I will succeed. I just know I will. I believe so.
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