In love once more

It has been three long years and eleven terrorizing months since I fell in love again. Yes, I am in love. I fell in love once again after two successive heart breaks in a year. I thought then that I don't deserve to love again and that maybe 'love' is just a word that means empty. I thought that I have finally become cynical and heartless after such ordeal, but miraculously I have not. My heart began to thump and beat erratically once more. I am once again part of the living, I thought to myself. And it is most definitely wonderful. I am once more floating on milky way and everything seems to be so right again. Oh how wonderful it is to find love once more. A love that is true and honest. One that makes you fall head over heels over and over each day. It seems like an endless garden of roses blooming in spring, full of promises of everlasting happiness. It sounds so dreamy, isn't it? It seems so unbelievable too, that even I could not believe it myself. But it is true. I have found love. I have found my one true love, and I could not believe it. I have been searching for it for so long and I finally found it at long last. It was here with me all along, that love that proves to bring me happiness has been under my nose all this time and I did not see it. But now I have given it notice and I am so blessed by it. My one true love, who could bring me anywhere I wanted and give me my hearts desires, my beloved books. I have found you once more and you gave me the love that I have so longed for. Thank you so much for bringing me back to life. I shall continue to read and read and believe that miracles do happen. I love you my precious Garwood and McNaught collection!!!!;p

Quitting FB

Quitting fb might be the best thing that I will be doing as of now. I want to completely eradicate my account but there doesn't seem to be a way of doing so. So my only choice is to delete every photo and video I may have there and totally not log- in anymore. What I do not understand is why there is no delete button to fb. I mean don't we have the right to remove our account there when we no longer have use for it? I think it has become a bother to me as of now. I do not find it useful anymore and it totally brainwashes everyone with its apps. I want to quit fb. I have my reasons for doing it and I am sure that this time, I won't be regretting it. It is so tidious to be deleting photos of which you were tagged from. Arrrgh!!! I hate it!!! I don't like fb anymore!!! I want to eradicate the whole account but their stupid system won't let me!!! Now I have to go piece by piece to delete everything and I'm so frustrated by doing it already!!!! I am so pissed already!!!! I just want to delete the stupid thing, is that so hard to grant????? I just want my life back!!! Give it back!!!!

Happily ever after

After yesterday's events my life's pages went on track once more. New pages now are beginning to unfold and are once more being written in a different perspective and outlook in life. As the pages of my life start to reveal itself, I begin to live each and everyday of it once more. I couldn't continue to write it then since I was stuck. i got stuck somewhere dark and gloomy that I lost my will and all inspiration to go on with my life. I have been through a lot for the past few days. I was on an emotional roller coaster that my heart could no longer breathe from too much tension and pressure. It was breaking apart piece by piece. I was in so much pain. I thought my heart would burn out from it all. It was at that moment that I realized that I no longer have love left in me, not even for myself. I could not save my own heart from the pain it was undergoing. I could not heal it at all. I was on the brink of giving up. I thought that that was the best option left if I were to rescue what was left of my heart. So I tried my hardest to do it but it was futile. I thought I would just crumble from it all and nobody would notice my disappearance. But when I finally thought that nobody would ever come and save me, someone came and reached out their hands to me and pulled me out from the darkness where I was trapped. I was so thankful to those saving hands. It gave me back my life. And now as a new chapter in my life unravels, I will live it like no other and make sure that this time around I will find my happily ever after.

Road Trip

Today I went road tripping with friends. We went from the review center where we met up with some of our friends who were coming along and bumped into one friend who was not supposed to be coming along at all. But luckily, with her mom's help, she was dragged into coming with us. Tres Bien! My twin came along for the trip after all. So, the day began from there. After they settled their business there, we went to paseo arcenas to buy some goodies for the trip and skedaddled for the road trip. There were just a few of us since most of our pals couldn't come along due to some personal matters and well some just don't seem to have their presence felt these days. There appearance seems to be at a very high cost now a days. Anyway, we had about a two hour trip going to simala to pray for their coming NLE and other personal matters. But first we had a pit stop at Carcar for lunch where we had lechon baboy and 2 litro bottles of pepsi plus ice cream sundae from the all time Filipino fast food chain, Jollibee. We were stuffed to the core from too much intake of junk food and beverage which left us with a full bladder by the time we got to Jollibee that we needed to use the lavatories. Ah, salvation. So with bladders empty and stuffed stomachs, we headed out once more for simala. When we got there, the cameras went hay wire. It was photo shoot after photo shoot and we haven't even prayed yet. Just shows that photo taking was a priority of the trip as well. So they wrote down their prayers and we lit candles and prayed with our own personal intentions in mind. We went to see the image off the blessed virgin and then went down the church to do some exploring and more picture taking. We had a blast there. After simala we had another pit stop at Carar's shoe expo where there was a giant shoe and tons of human sized shoes for everyone. We went from stall to stall to browse and try some shoes on (apparently that's all we did 'cept for 3 of our friends who actually bought sandals). So as they were searching and trying sandals after sandals, some of us sat at the benches and tried to cool down since it was very warm and humid that it makes you sweat like a pig there. So we just chatted all the sweat away and entertained ourselves with trifle chitchats to pass the time while they scavenge for the perfect sandals. After which we had another photo shoot at the giant shoe. Pure awesomeness! And so after the photo shoot with the shoe, we headed back for the city. But apparently we made another detour once more. We went to see the Don Bosco retreat house since it is where they will be staying for their in-house this coming Nov. 12 except for my twin that is, since she will be staying at Good Shephered for her in-house. The place was fantabulous! I wish I had stayed there when I had my in-house, but regrets aside, I still enjoyed my stay at Good Sheepy, even though I had a sudden onset of hoome sickness and went into depression for a week there. But anyway, the view there is great. Some of us took more pictures there once more, while I sat next to my gloomy and frustrated twin after we went exploring the rooms and corridors. And so the day went on and the sun was setting, so we hit the road once more for another site that was not on the plan at all but was based on pure impulse of the moment. This time we headed for SRP to take more pictures and just ingest the beautful scenery for the setting sun. But sadly we missed the sunset, but there was an even more amazing scenery that we just witnessed tonight. It was the rising of the moon. It was magnificent! It simply was breath taking. I was drawn to the beauty of the moon and felt that I have witnessed one of natures wonders. It was the very first time ever that I saw the moon rise, in fact that was the first for all of us. It was totally spectacular. If only we had the right equipment to capture that very moment, it would be precious. But even though we didn't have the right equipment, the scene itself was as precious as anything captured on film. And that was the perfect ending to our lovely and awesome road trip.